Alhamdulliah.

Still praying for the best (for my future)

Good night 

xx

Takut

Results will be out in a couple of hours. 

Macam tengah tunggu masa depan aku. Macam ada dua pintu kat depan.

Pintu A: oh congratulations. If you're lucky enough, you MIGHT have a chance to further your studies in medicine. 

Pintu B: hate to burst your bubbles but you didn't make it. Your dream is just simply a wish. How bout engineering? 

Oh my god, takut nya. Rasa nak nangis. 

For you guys out there, u guys might think spm is everything. Spm lah penentu masa depan kau. 

But if u're doing matriculations or foundation studies. Then spm is not everything. 

For me, this is. This will determine who you going to be in 10 years time. 

Then yet again if u're parents is willing to pay for ur education then neither spm nor matriculation will determine that. 

U'll just get an easy path to ur future. 

But i dont think my parents will pay for my education. Especially my dad. As long as 18 years i had live with him. I just dont think that he would. My that have this principe of, 'If you want it, you have to deserves it.'  No free education. 

Just wish me luck for this upcoming result. Im so scared 

Till i write again. 

xx

Palam 2014/2015

Gonna be my last post about palam kot, time to move on. (KOT) 

Palam was a hell of a ride.

Aku register palam on the 9th of june 2014. I was supposedly to register on the 2nd but "sadly" i cant make it because i had a family vacay at America. Oh well :P 

Aku balik LA on the 4th (i think) n sampai malaysia on the 6th. Register on monday with my dad. I have missed 2 hours of my first lecture that day. It was biology.  He he he. I still remember how dizzy i was on my first day. Jetlag kateko. Duduk kat psb with ma dad. He bought himeself a bottle of coke. I cant remember what i drank. We both sat there ( at psb) facing each other waiting for my friend to come. I took a glance at my surroundings. Feeling scared. Not knowing all these people. Thinking that they already had a chance to know each other during mds n i would be like a lost blue penguin in a seas full of black penguins. Lol. Over je. Tambahan pula everything seems to be floating sebab mengantuk sangat. My dad pun mengantuk juga. 15 jam kot time difference. Siapa tak mengantuk kan. 

My first friend was Nadiah, syahindah and aleen. Nadiah and syahindah jumpa depan lecture hall. Aleen aku jumpa time my first lecture. She was seating on my left side and nadiah was on my right. First lecture aku duduk atas sekali. Bahagian tengah. Pergh horror gila. Aku tak nampak apa apa. Rabun. Power tak cukup. 

2nd day, 

My first class that day was chemistry lab. Terpaksa campur dengan kelas A7 sebab lecturer tak datang kot haritu nth lupa. Duduk meja depan hujung sekali sebelah kanan. Berkenalan dengan orang tepi aku which is Qilla, n Nayly. Then Aleen datang. Dia cakap 'kenal tak aku' then aku dengan sejujur jujur nya cakap 'tak.sorry.' Hahaha. Then i decided to take her picture n buat contact picture so that i wont forget her face ever again. Hahaha bodoh je. Then we decided to stick together. Sampai semester dua. Dia orang lah lab mates aku, duduk sama sama time lectures, group aku untuk segala mak nenek asignments n grouping, dan peneman sementara tunggu next class to start.

Left: me, nayly, qilla and aleen

Ni lah psb. 

Tutorial physics

To be honest, time semester 1 aku kawan ngan dia orang semua ni (termasuk classmate aku yang lain) tak rasa apa apa pun. I mean like sekadar kawan. Lagi pun satu tahun je ( tak sampai pun) . And honestly aku tak kisah pasal dia orang sangat pun. All i ever thought of was that , i have to score this, aku kena buat elok elok time asasi ni. N tbh aku tak ingat sangat pun hidup aku masa semester 1 kecuali certain things lah (example going to the library on regular basis lol) 

But the bonds grew extra stronger time semester dua. Aku dah start kisah. And aku rasa macam kita dah kenal lama sangat. Mungkin sebab makin susah cabaran, makin rapat hubungan kita sebab kita menempohi cabaran itu sama sama. :')  

And of course there were ups n downs during my whole journey in palam. Kalau tak ada downs tu maka kenangan adalah bukan kenangan. Betul tak? Lol.  Sweet memories are to be cherished. Bitter memories are to be forgoten. 

xx

Last class ever in palam

'Asasi 96'

Housemates. (Dalam rumah )

Meditating dalam lecture hall? Lol

Well hello there. Busy nya study. He he he

Word of Advice

Wow, it's been a long while since my last post (in which i have revert all of it to draft :D)

Let's cut to the chase shall we? So some of my juniors have contacted me personally to ask for tips regarding palam. How bout i make a whole entry about it. Savvy?

So as all of you know, asasi uitm di Puncak Alam dipanggil palam. Palam tu actually stands for Puncak Alam. But i've heard that the asasi students will be moved to Dengkil. So idk what it's going to be call later on.

So here's some advice and tips that maybe, might help to ease up your flow at palam (or not)

1) Concentrate during lectures. Kalau boleh jangan tidur (kalau boleh lah). Take notes on what is necessary. Trust me, this will help to ease up your burden during revision as u already have a  clear picture about what is actually going on.

2) Buat tutorial. Kalau tersekat dan tak tahu macam mana nak buat. Then tanya  kawan; roommate, housemates, classmates etc. Kalau dia orang tak tahu juga then tanya lecturer time tutorial. Clear up all the blurry concepts. Jangan duduk kat meja lama, tersekat sebab tak tahu. Bajet diri dah terlalu pandai sangat sampai tak layak nak tanya orang lain. Please, kat luar sana banyak lagi orang yang far way more smarter than you. Geniuses perhaps. ppffttt. Lagi satu boleh jimat masa. Biar study cepat dan sekejap asal kan effective dan berkesan. And let's say you didn't manage to complete your tutorial on time. Then copy from your friend, it's ok. BUT make sure that you have clear up all the concepts including dalam tutorial tu (tengok dan buat balik) sebelum quiz, test dan pastinya sebelum finals.

3) Lab reports. Tak payah buat discussion pun tak apa. Group aku tak pernah buat discussion pun. Instead, kita orang buat whatsapp group, bahagi kan tugas dan tangkap gambar je bahagian yang kau perlu buat then nanti ada sorang ditugaskan untuk salin balik. Buang masa je kadang-kadang discussion ni. End up, sembang je banyak, bukan discuss pun. Baik lah korang guna masa yang ada tu buat benda lain. Basuh baju ke. Trust me, your schedule will be pretty pack. By the end of the day, markah lab report semua orang lebih kurang sama je dalam kelas tu. [tapi jangan buat kerja cincai. asal siap. bahaya] p/s:its ok to copy ur friend's or housemate's lab reports, i mean that is what friends for right? :P ;)

4) Carry marks. Carry marks adalah sangat penting. Carry mark ni ibarat penyelamat kau masa final. kalau kau kantoi final, tapi carry mark ok, then ok. quiz kena score . Carry marks ni 50% which consist of quiz, test, assingments and lab reports. Lagi 50% is your final. Nak selamat carry marks kena at least 40%. So you have to be consistent throughout your asasi. Bukan time final je. Kalau nak A lah.  

5)Assignments. Assignment ni lagi memainkan peranan yang penting daripada quiz. Kalau group-mates kau lembab sangat nak bagi material, lambat nak start, semua orang macam malas, senyap je. (Maklumlah dia orang je kan yang busy kat asasi, kita tak busy pun.) Then kau buat lah. Be selfless. At least to yourself. Because it is your carry marks also. Kalau kau selfish je, kau pun tak nak start maka terjejas lah carry marks kau juga. Kalau kau buat sorang-sorang pun tak apa. I know it might seemed like u are doing some sort of charity work or something but trust me, by the time kau dapat carry mark dan tengok markah assignments kau, it will be totally worth it. insyaAllah :) 

I think that basically summed it all. Remember, time asasi kena score. This will determine your future. Who you going to be in 10 years time. What will you do to earn a living. Kau akan compete dengan budak pasum, matrikulasi dan juga stpm for a place in degree. SPM dah tak apa-apa makna sangat dah. This is like a clean slate. You guys are fighting each other back from zero. From scratch. 

SPM tu ibarat kunci korang je nak fly or dapat university mana (tapi tak boleh lah teruk sangat. kalau teruk tak dapat lah palam.). 

Jangan pandang rendah sangat kat orang yang dapat sikit A daripada kau dan menyanjungi orang yang dapat straight A's. Sebab kadang-kadang orang yang tak seberapa lah yang berada di atas manakala orang straight A's tu lah yang terpaksa keluar ambil diploma. 

Success will come with a price: for those who work hard for it and for those who really deserves it.

Best regards, xx.